Lately I've been feeling kind of depressed. I can't exactly put my finger on why - I think it has stemmed from not sleeping well, which isn't usually a problem of mine - but it's definitely been a pervading feeling over the past week or so. Many of the little details are starting to snowball to the point that I have a hard time remembering the positives in my life. I feel like there is so much I want to do in my life in addition to being a veterinarian, and many things I want to change about myself in the name of self-improvement, to feel better about myself. Everything from health to interactions with friends to personal appearance weighs on my mind and I get to feeling overwhelmed when I think about it. I wish there were some door to close behind me and a new one in front of me to open to "start fresh" with a lot of things.

So I made a list of things I want to do. I included stuff like dress more nicely, read the news, keep my car and house clean, cook more meals at home, spend less recreational time on the internet, cook more meals at home, etc. It's a long list and it isn't even everything I feel like I want to do with my life, but I had to start somewhere. Since I have some nice chunks of time in my schedule Thursday-Sunday, I know I have the time to make some of this stuff happen. It's just a matter of having the discipline to take that first step and keep with it.