Originally I had intended to take a brief blogging hiatus until finals were done. I didn't want to burden anyone who reads this with my trials and tribulations (read: whining). But I realized today that a big part of vet school and life is how you deal with what stresses you. Plus this is a blog about my life, not just about vet school, and I don't need to justify writing a more personal post now and again. So I'm not going to go into hibernation just to spare you all the details. Here you have it:
School is winding down. Finals start tomorrow (although we've already had two practical exams) and I have two weeks of exams before I can go home. Which seems nice - plenty of time to study! But it drags and I lose focus after a few days because all I can think of is home. So I've barely studied for my first written exam tomorrow. I'm lucky that it's "just" fish health.
I'm getting married one month from tomorrow. While I have no qualms whatsoever with the actual marriage part, it's becoming planning crunch time. I am so, so lucky to have my family and SO back home handling the day to day stuff, meeting with people, planning, etc, but there's still so much required of me and I really want it to be a great day for everyone involved - including myself.
My dog's health isn't great. She's old so it isn't unexpected, but I've been wrestling with how to proceed with her and it's a sad thing to consider. Moving 1200 miles back home will be an immense stress on her, as will leaving her for a week for my honeymoon, but I don't want to give up on her just yet. There are still some non-invasive things we can try to address her issues, so I'm trying to stay optimistic.
The amazing summer experience I had lined up fell through. Not only was I looking forward to spending my summer doing lab animal stuff, but I was hoping to use it to boost my (eventual) residency application; pair it with the fact that I would really like to be close to home with my residency and I feel like I've shot myself in the foot in one fell swoop. It's disheartening.
There are other smaller details that are thorns in my side, but that's the bulk of it. I've been moping around the past few weeks feeling super stressed - grumpy, sad, frustrated, angry, etc in turns. But I have to get a handle on it all. Pretty much everything resolves itself with the right amount of time - "this too shall pass" - but I can maybe make it a bit less painful by being proactive. Hopefully I can post in two weeks when I'm home from school and being more light-hearted.
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