Not to sound melodramatic, but I'm at a bit of a cross-roads with this blog. The way the semester has been going, I feel drained, pessimistic, down-trodden, stressed, overwhelmed and rather apathetic at times. While the blog is mine and I have no obligation to keep things light-hearted and jovial at all times, I imagine that reading about how bummed I'm feeling post after post gets boring at best and irritating at worst. Watching the pageviews climb, I know that people do read my blog, and I guess I feel a sense of responsibility to those people to make the content at least something they want to come and read about. Right now, I envision people clicking on the blog, seeing my four hundred and thirty-fifth post about how stressed/etc I am right now, rolling their eyes and leaving.

But then I think of the blogs that I read, and that what makes them so compelling is that I feel like I can connect with the writer on some level. I don't care if they only ever post about one thing - if they can make it relevant and interesting, funny or emotional, I'm drawn to it and I don't ever feel like it was a waste of time to read.

So I went on the hunt through Google, searching "sample blog topics." What I came to discover was that "blogs" are seen mostly as a business-related thing, not as personal as I imagine them to be. "How I use Social Media!" or "Do It Yourself Projects!" are all well and good, but they are certainly not me. So I altered my search to "sample journal topics" and bam - I started to find the results I had been looking for! And then one of the prompts was "If you were a doctor, what kind of doctor would you be? (Veterinarian, children's doctor, etc)" and I abruptly lost interest because all my blog has really been about is about becoming a veterinarian and we all know how beaten to death that topic is right about now. So I got to thinking about what I would do if I weren't becoming a veterinarian and that was just depressing (buying a house, celebrating Thanksgiving with my family, starting a family, etc). Headed back in the wrong direction!

So I guess all I can do for now is continue along my merry way with this blog. I promise to try not to complain too much (some complaining will be inevitable...) and to include as much as I can about what I'm actually doing with my time. If I can make the effort to focus more on the events than the negativity I'm feeling, maybe I can feel less guilty about the quality of my posts.